I just finished The Fault in Our Stars.
Which, as you can guess, makes you consider thing like life and love and stuff.
It was definitely the best book I've ever read, possibly the best book I'll ever read.
It makes me think of this quote from Hazel:
"Sometimes, you read a book and it fills you with this weird evangelical zeal,
and you become convinced that the shattered world will never be put back together unless and until all living humans read the book. And then there are books like 'An Imperial Affliction', which you can't tell people about, books so special and rare and yours that advertising your affection feels like a betrayal."
I'm not quite sure what this book is to me.
I want everyone to read it, but I feel like when Hazel told Agustus about 'An Imperial Affliction'.
I feel like this book is far too much to me, and sharing it with people, no matter how much I like them, puts me at risk.
I don't think I could handle someone I value the opinion of, or a close friend, reading it and having negative things to say about. Or not quite getting it.
I feel as if someone can't really understand this book,
Then they can never really understand me.
The first thing that popped into my mind when (HUGE SPOILER ALERT) Augustus died was the quote:
"This is the way the world ends
Not with a bang but a whimper." The Hollow Men, T. S. Eliot.
Agustus never died with a bang like he wanted to.
No heroic battle, just "a whimper", which made me think of how weak he became at the end.
Not physically, but emotionally and mentally.
Like at the gas station, when all he wanted to do was buy a pack of cigarettes.
I feel like one day I'm going to meet John Green,
and it will probably be similar to Hazel meeting Peter Van Houten. (Except John won't be a dick.)
I'll probably try to wear what I think Hazel would wear, or a nerdfighter shirt,
and ask him about the future of all the characters.
What happened to Hazel, her mom, her dad, how old was Hazel when she died, how did her parents take it, what happened to Kaitlyn, Isaac, Peter Van Houten, Agustus's parents... Etc.
Right now "My thoughts are stars I cannot fathom into constellations."
What are your thoughts on the book?
Tell me your theories, write me an Agustus Waters sequel. (Like the one he wrote for Peter)
Whose your favorite character?
Mine is Hazel, because I can relate to her on her thoughts on life, the universe, love, and death.
I also love Agustus Waters. (As would any sane girl)
I relate to his views on life and death as well.
I'm also in love with Isaac.
I've had many times in my life where I've wanted to smash basketball trophies, or egg someone's car.
I want desperately, for someone to love me and 'Okay' with me.
I need someone to go through this world with me and be Okay.
Does that make sense?
I guess most people want to find "true love".
As said by Agustus:
"I'm on a roller coaster that only goes up, my friend.".
Which I can't stop thinking about.
Listening to: T.a.t.U.
Reading: The Fault in Our Stars
Watching: The Legend of Korra