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I just finished The Fault in Our Stars.
Which, as you can guess, makes you consider thing like life and love and stuff.
It was definitely the best book I've ever read, possibly the best book I'll ever read.
It makes me think of this quote from Hazel:
"Sometimes, you read a book and it fills you with this weird evangelical zeal,
and you become convinced that the shattered world will never be put back together unless and until all living humans read the book. And then there are books like 'An Imperial Affliction', which you can't tell people about, books so special and rare and yours that advertising your affection feels like a betrayal."
I'm not quite sure what this book is to me.
I want everyone to read it, but I feel like when Hazel told Agustus about 'An Imperial Affliction'.
I feel like this book is far too much to me, and sharing it with people, no matter how much I like them, puts me at risk.
I don't think I could handle someone I value the opinion of, or a close friend, reading it and having negative things to say about. Or not quite getting it.
I feel as if someone can't really understand this book,
Then they can never really understand me.

The first thing that popped into my mind when (HUGE SPOILER ALERT) Augustus died was the quote:
"This is the way the world ends
Not with a bang but a whimper." —The Hollow Men, T. S. Eliot.
Agustus never died with a bang like he wanted to.
No heroic battle, just "a whimper", which made me think of how weak he became at the end.
Not physically, but emotionally and mentally.
Like at the gas station, when all he wanted to do was buy a pack of cigarettes.

I feel like one day I'm going to meet John Green,
and it will probably be similar to Hazel meeting Peter Van Houten. (Except John won't be a dick.)
I'll probably try to wear what I think Hazel would wear, or a nerdfighter shirt,
and ask him about the future of all the characters.
What happened to Hazel, her mom, her dad, how old was Hazel when she died, how did her parents take it, what happened to Kaitlyn, Isaac, Peter Van Houten, Agustus's parents... Etc.

Right now "My thoughts are stars I cannot fathom into constellations."
What are your thoughts on the book?
Tell me your theories, write me an Agustus Waters sequel. (Like the one he wrote for Peter)
Whose your favorite character?
Mine is Hazel, because I can relate to her on her thoughts on life, the universe, love, and death.
I also love Agustus Waters. (As would any sane girl)
I relate to his views on life and death as well.
I'm also in love with Isaac.
I've had many times in my life where I've wanted to smash basketball trophies, or egg someone's car.

I want desperately, for someone to love me and 'Okay' with me.
I need someone to go through this world with me and be Okay.
Does that make sense?
I guess most people want to find "true love".

As said by Agustus:
"I'm on a roller coaster that only goes up, my friend.".
Which I can't stop thinking about.
  • Mood: Lonely
  • Listening to: T.a.t.U.
  • Reading: The Fault in Our Stars
  • Watching: The Legend of Korra
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starratchild Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2012
OHMIGOSH!!!! I'm gonna have to read this!
spinda101 Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2012
dolphin64575 Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I think nearly everyone feels, at least a little, about TFiOS the way Hazel does about AIA. You want everyone to read it and think deeply about it, but you know there are people who will believe the Encouragements, who will call John a pornographer (again), who just won't get it. And you fear that some of those people are your loved ones, that you trying to share this story ends like with Peter Van Houten, expecting nice chats but instead just a Decepticon.

Don't worry, when you meet John, your brain will likely be too excited to remember to ask him about TFiOS. Also, he's not one of those authors whose characters live on in his head after the story. (Though he did write a short story about that sort of thing, it's a perk for donating to the Harry Potter Alliance's Imagine Better fundraiser for Equality FTW.)

As to my favorite character, I can't choose. There's Hazel, already seemingly at peace with her mortality, trying to minimize her impact. Gus, with his savior complex, trying to hide his recurrence, then having to basically sit on the sidelines as his body betrays him (I got so upset when he couldn't even buy a new pack of cigs.) Isaac, going blind and getting dumped for it, having to live with the fact that horrible stuff just... Happens.

Also, don't worry about your thoughts. They'll expand and shrink and move together and make a constellation with you hardly realizing it. Not being able to fathom your idea-stars into constellations is very common after reading this book.

(Just realized, TFiOS touched me as much as, if not more than, Harry Potter. I cried more at TFiOS than HP. John did to my feels in one book what Jo did in 7.)
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spinda101 Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2012
Yes, thank you!
I was never good at writing out or saying my thoughts, but you summed it up very well. It's hard for me to imagine that there are people who would read this book, and not think deeply about, or even be touched by it. Much less call John a pornographer. :/

Well, he answered some of the questions here: [link]
Do you know where I could find that short story?

That part where he couldn't even buy his cigarettes really did affect me. Even though Gus died, I'm happy Hazel still has Isaac.
I mean, she has Kaitlyn and the once mentioned 'Matt', but no one but Isaac could really understand her anymore.

I have been able to gather my TFiOS thoughts.
Not completely, but my mind is no longer a never ending explosion of TFiOS thoughts. Now I can kinda think about other things. XD

I definitely had more feels over TFiOS than HP.
Harry Potter is really close to me, but there are other fandoms (such as Doctor Who) that matter more to me than Harry potter.
No other fandoms can do that to TFiOS.
TFiOS kind of has a special place in my heart, separate from the other fandoms. So I'm not entirely sure if I have any fandoms that can compare, seeing as there in a completely different area of my heart. Sorry if that didn't make sense. :/
dolphin64575 Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
If you donate $25 to this [link] fundraiser before Sept 8th you can check the box to receive an e-book of The Sequel on Sept 10th(ish).
The first section of John Green's unfinished, abandoned novel THE SEQUEL, which is a sequel to a novel that doesn't exist called THE ODD AT SEA. About the story, John says "THE SEQUEL contains a lot of the ideas that ended up in THE FAULT IN OUR STARS, although it's a very different kind of story. I worked on THE SEQUEL between 2008 and 2010 before finally putting it aside. There is of course a REASON why I abandoned it: It isn't very good. But it has some moments I still like, and I'm hoping seeing a draft like this will provide a window into one writer's process. And of course I want to raise some money for the HPA!"

THE SEQUEL is the story of a young woman named Hannah al-Hajji who finds herself alone in the world after the novel in which she is a character ends. Everyone else in the novel disappears, but she for some reason is left with us. The story costars a young student chaplain, recently graduated from college, who happens to have read the novel that Hannah was a minor character in. The selection is 6,437 words long.

I think every fandom that touches us holds a little piece of our heart. TFiOS just holds a rather large piece.
spinda101 Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2012
KuroTsukiKun Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I get you. I absolutely, completely understand the sentiment, especially at the end.
I think we all want someone to make it Okay (always a capital 'O'), and someone to be Okay with. Ever since finishing it, I've thought about the book nonstop. Some thoughts were, like you said, similar to Hazel's questions to Peter. Like you, if I were to ever meet John Green, I would badger him nonstop, but also be terrified of seeming weak to him. Other times, though, I'll do nothing but mull over certain quotes, spending hours just relating to the words.
His characters are flawless.
I wish I could write you an Augustus-style sequel...but I could never live up to it. No one but John could write it.
You're listening to t.A.T.u. and watching Korra and readinh John Green. You're really awesome. :D
spinda101 Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2012
Thank you so much. :)
When I reread the book and go over the quotes a second time,
it really amazes me with the way John words things.

Do you watch VlogBrothers and have you read any other John Green books?

True, no one but John could write a sequel,
and it really doesn't need one. it's nice to dream though.

You are also awesome!
Have you finished season 1 of Korra?
KuroTsukiKun Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
ABSOLUTELY! I've been a loyal Nerdfighter since 2008. :) I've read all of John Green's books except Will Grayson, Will Grayson. But I'm on the waiting list for that at my library. :D

I have not. I'm waiting for it to come out on Netflix. At the moment, I'm just rewatching AtLA. :)
spinda101 Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2012
What's your favorite John Green book besides TFiOS?
I'm looking for a good next one to read.

Who's your favorite AtLA characters?
KuroTsukiKun Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
TFIOS and LFA are my favorites.

Hm...Zuko, definately Zuko. Although, Toph's pretty cool as well. You?
spinda101 Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2012
I'm definitely reading LFA next, I've heard great things about it.

YES. I'm the other way around. Toph first, Zuko second.
KuroTsukiKun Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Gemmaster Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2012
Wow. That sounds pretty powerful. I can understand that feeling to a point. There are so many little things in our lives that touch us. What was just a ripple in our pond becomes a tidal wave of special meaning and heart wrenching attachment. But I wouldn't worry too much about people not understanding. You're right, in that anyone could read the same book, and yet not be touched in the same way you were. It's only logical, since not everyone has the same life experiences. But your friends, your good friends, can read a book or see something thats touched you, and even if they didn't get the same message as you, didn't get touched by it like you, most good friends can recognize that it touched you and can appreciate it simply for that reason.
And while it may not be possible to be understood at all times, generally if we are honest with people, we will be.
Thanks for sharing about this cool book.
spinda101 Featured By Owner Jul 24, 2012
Thank you so much.
You made me feel a lot better. :)
It's not a feeling that I've really come across before,
so I wasn't really sure how to handle it.

It's a great book, you should try reading it.
I still have to read Beastly.
Is that still your favorite book?
Gemmaster Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2012
Yep. That and Ender's Game by Orson Scott Card. I can't decide which I like better.
spinda101 Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2012
I've been wanting to read that.
What kind of genre is it?
Gemmaster Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2012
Ender's Game? It's Scifi adventure. It's the first book in a series.
spinda101 Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2012
How many books?
dolphin64575 Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
A lot. Over a dozen. There are 3 in the original series, then others that are told from different character's POV, what happened before, during, and after Ender's story that we didn't get to see? (I prefer Bean's story to Ender's)
I recommend starting with Ender's Game and Ender's Shadow. Same time frame, different POVs.
spinda101 Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2012
Thanks. :)
Gemmaster Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2012
I think there's three books in that line, then there's a few spin off books that happen in the same world.
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